i don't know.
while you were still listening.
I cry myself to sleep, wishing you are by my side.
Just wanting you home.
in the midst of a october sky, I think of you.
kiss your tender sweet lips....
As i take a slow breath I fall deep in love with you.
Am I Running Away?
Lora Joy Cabanilla
With every rising sun,
I believe that there's hope
That everything will be alright,
And suddenly, I wake up
And the new day has just been gone
I must leave every dream and fantasy
'Coz they will never be reality
The hope that I hold in the
depths of my heart,
Turns into frustrations, as I,
go to every walk of life
And then I realize that,
the only way to depart is to simply say,
my long and last goodbye.
The little girl a bit too insane
Icing over her secret pain
She knows she doesn't belong
She always tries to be tough and strong
She takes her knife and goes upstairs
When she cuts herself her anger flares
She curses God for her despair
No one seems to notice
No one seems to care
Alone in her room it's her own pain she bares
Isn't it isane?
This little girl was happy once
This lonely girl is now gone
Isn't it insane?
I wish that I could help her
But she screams to let her be
Oh my God--how could this happen?
How could this girl have become me?
My heart is like a glass,
fragile and first class.
There is no heart that is low or high,
There is only first, As well as mine.
My heart can shatter,
but that does not matter,
because what is done, can't be undone.
At my funeral
You were my only true friend
You were crying
You were dying
Wishing that i was still alive
But this was meant to be
It was my destiny
To be an angel
Sitting on your shoulder like a tangle
In your hair
And I will always be there
You know life isn't always fair
I wish everyone would care
As much as you do
I love you
You are my only true friend
I listen to music
for it stirs my emotions.
The notes all run together,
and forms an awakening
that comes out of my fingers
in the form of words.
It arouses my feelings,
enrages my soul,
for it is inside me
that the words are formed.
He sticks needles in his arm, one for each lover who has done him harm,
He can feel no pain when he is already being tortured.
A drop of blood for each lovers' sake, in addition to his heart ache,
How much more could he take, his sanity being blurred
Every razor, every knife, every girl he couldn't make his wife, oh his
His heart filling with an immortal despair, The gleam of a knife raised into
the air, bluntly his fate occured.
Vengeful strains rain pain to the people
KKK clan meetings to hang the feeble
hatred burns in unjust cause
the devils voice whispers to us all
cause some will die by evils hand
cause evil controls the will of man
and man will do wrong as long as he listens
to deaths lost way deaths only mission
to take the life of those who live
but never repay the ones that give
give themselves to others trust
but thin death strikes down the just
the people must rise and realize there place
go to the depths of hell and close its gates
face your fears the time is near
when death will be struck down by his own spear
death thinks he's winning but its not what it appears
for this is the end of deaths long years
I like Whiskey on the rocks.
I like rum with my coke.
I like jack with my lemonade.
I like vodka with my oj.
I like marlboros for breakfast.
A can of copenheagen for dinner.
but there's one thing, that I really wanna.
and that's to smoke some Marijuana
Erick E. Severns
we have been through our good days
we have been through our bad days
We have had our laughs
We have had our cries
We have had our good times
we have had our bad times
In the end we will all have each other
The meaning of life to me.
LIFE is the most wonderful thing given to us, and as an individual I decide
As it appears to be mysterious everything is plain to see.
With friends they are all around you, patient by your side.
TRUST is something we give naturally but we must learn not to be so judgmental
as we were all once the same.
With LOVE if you are willing, give as much as you can because it will return
to you much greater as if it were a gift.
So to me LIFE although can be confusing, its destiny is to be decided by ME.
Though the miles be many, and the road be long
My light ne'er dims, my hope doth wax strong
That I should find thee, Love, when I awaken
Some sweet nigh morn again. I hearken:
The beating of our hearts I number
As time twixt Lightning Flash and Thunder.
Glory be! The sum it dwindles fast!
Naught heralds thy return to me at last.
Eric Lovett (...Missing my wife)
Friendship is leaving
When you leave, will you care?
Will you send me letters?
Will you keep in touch,
And hold with me your trust?
Friendship too strong to lose,
Tears too hard to stop.
Will you be there for me?
Like I was there for you?
To cheer you up when your crying,
to hug you when your blue?
Please stay a little longer,
And tell me you'll miss me too.
By Sarah Jane Edwards
My Love for you
My love for you is o so true
Every night and day I think of you
My love for you will never end
Ill always love you even if we are just friends
My love for you seems so unreal
And just by saying I love you explains exactly how I feel
Crazy but i think god blessed me with an angel from above
And just to show you i really care i writing you this just to show my love
please never leave me cuz i really do love you
Especially every little thing you do
to my love ruben i love you babe
Alwayz'n'froever your Girl drea
God, y u let the devil produce kokain, it's seduced my friends brain's
I hope u can C, I kan not let this be
It's time 4 me 2 step up
I ask all 2 understand im bekum'in uh man
So it's time 4 me 2 rise & clear these Lies
Kokain, uh product of the devil
It seeps in my friends brain's, make's em' feel level
God, Alleviate Lucifer's hate & inaugurate my pear's clean slate
This Kokain' explains Y this pain remains
God, my Unique Soul's conflicted for my Dawg'z R addicted
Lord, 4 the life of me, I kan not C, Y u don't notice
The devil's got they life in that strife & there's no bliss
Well this man wont take-it
Show me that thing, Ill brake-it
Here me lord, no more, I DON'T GIVE UH FUK
Im fed up, please lord C that my friends R stuk
Jesus Christ pick em' up
Fuk the lies & Madness
These R desperate cries from Sadness
SOON, 1 by 1 my friends turn to the gun, BOOM
Now u kan find this Souljer on the boulder stare'in 2 the moon
God I kan't understand why kain's on this land
I ask all 2 perceive my art
Kokain's uh produkt of the devils deceitful heart
At the start I didn't know yayo would rip life's apart
I would have stopped them then, b4 it dropped 4 men
Kokain, put out from Lucifer's lust
Listen, as I Bust these absurd words my cheek's glisten
Emotion's Hard 2 speak, tears fallin' down my cheek
Dear god, please lord, My spirit feel's week
These Here Tears aint madness im writen
Kokain aint no game 4 my friends, there soul's R fighten'
Y u depressed, when I ask that they blast bak
Please, holy spirit, no lies, these my cry's kan u hear it
2 those who left take uh deep breath bekuz u escaped death
Things turned bad bak here & Lord knows I aint shed my last tear
I pray every night for the next day 2 B light
But for them, my dear friends, the kain's in they brain & it's dark
Left uh gaping hole in they intricate soul
I kant do no more, 2 many life's R tore
Last night I was kryin' & my tears reached the floor
My essence was dyin, flyin' out the door
I love my friends oh so Much
But they have my deepest trust so I must not speak
Just watch em' fall deeper each week
God, the stake's kokain creates bekum'z steeper each week
I want 2 ask them 2 stop the emotional violence
But it's un-fair, lord I swear my soul's been silenced
So I pray 4 u 2 help them get through what the kokain's about 2 do
When the clock strikes 11 and they soul's lifted 2 heaven
Judge them not as if they were addict's
Please c that was just they mind's habit
Understand - these boy's never became uh man
Please Lord watch over my friends
I now give my beloved krew up to u
Peace & luv
There are demons that live in me I defeated one today,
They take control and run your life won't let you out to play.
I don't know where they come from but they'll consume you over years,
They thrive and grow more powerful from feeding on your fears.
If they gain you you'll be lost, inhumanity will take place,
Everyone will criticize with disgust upon their face.
One by one you'll find out who your friends are not,
Disregard their unawareness, do not feel distraught.
It will make more fuel for demons to suck away your breath,
A terror that burns out of control, you may question peace in death.
Death can't overcome them, they'll follow even past,
Find a way to conquer and be freed from them at last.
Hold a piece of valid self and nurture it with truth,
You may have to search to find it maybe back to early youth.
There are no magic remedies in a bottle on a shelf,
Only you can find the love that lives within yourself.
I promise a recovery a victory beyond compare,
To gain control and find your breath a solution to despair.
being friends is the hardest thing to do when you know in your heart he's
the one you've always been wishing for, the one you want, the one you need,
the one you'll never stop loving
Only God Knows
I hear the songs
I see the shows
And heard the fairy tales of love so dear
Where does it come from
I donít know
Who does it come from only god knows
I hear the songs
I feel so low
I see the shows
And I want to know
Whereís my special someone
Where am I loved
Iím loved at home because of blood
But whereís the love I see in the shows
I want to find that someone
I want to find the one who cares
Where will she come from
How will I know
Only god knows
Eartha L. McElveen
I LOVE YOU
I LOVE YOU
WHY CAN'T YOU SEE
I LOVE YOU
WHY CAN'Y YOU RESPECT ME
I LOVE YOU
BUT YOU' RE NOT READY
I LOVE YOU
I DON'T WANT TO
I LOVE YOU
SO MUCH IT HURTS
I LOVE YOU
Do you ever feel that you're not enough
And are you kicking down the rough
Are you Flying under what you should be
Now you're starting to worry me
A star is born in a far off place
A wonder lost in you're space
For lost ambitions to be who you are
Because they all look very far
Is the curtain falling or is it already down
Are you still lost or were you finally found
I guess in the end it's really all up to you
And what you choose will be what you do
Now will you grow up or give up the fight
Is it goodbye or goodnight
Is the sun going to set or will it rise
When you collect the final prize
WAS IT A DREAM
Funnel clouds amidst a late night storm building with intensity . . .
Lightening pierces the dark sky illuminating every hidden crack and corner .
My heart begins to race with the force of a hundred thoroughbred horses.
I relentlessly struggle to slow the pace, but it was out-of-control.
My arms are limp and my hands shake as I pace the floor wildly and then like
a hunter stalking his prey, I crouch to the floor.
Suddenly a horrific feeling of helplessness and fear comes like waves of an
ocean at high tide enveloping everything in its path . . . washing my dreams
My only escape from the turmoil was to sleep. When I awoke, I couldn't
remember why I was so afraid?
I feel the heat, the soft whisper of a sudden motion,
I'm lost in you, your movement against the fallen stars,
Its sad to say but I think we will never be again,
Cause tonight I just may find the strength.
I put my soul on the line, my very self, all I am,
When before I can even close my eyes you destroy me,
The gun is loaded and if I get a chance...
Be here tonight and hold me tight cause if my finger shakes I just might..
And if I cant be this then I cant exist Ill just pray I wont feel a thing.
I face the sky my long time friend and tears stream down my face,
Their made of lonely depressing pain and streaked with a little fear,
I know this is wrong but I cant go on with one more beautiful day,
If I could only fall asleep and never wake up, be carried of inside of my
This is it, the thought's grown on me, Finally pushing past the odds, I hope
it's not to loud, I dont want that.
And if I had it my way, they would never find me here,
Goodbye to today, I never got to see forever.
Yasleh Rita Ayu Mat Yassin
I am surrounded
by people who are
squeezing me dry.
I am suffocated
by their needs, wants,
and they ignored me (nobody heard).
and they turned away (nobody saw).
Thinking of You
Up all night, thinking of you
Praying that my dream will come true.
Hoping in time we'll be together,
Knowing in my heart
I'll love you forever.
He'll lead you closer one day at a time,
One of these days, you will be mine.
You don't believe me, who's by your side
Claiming that she loved you the whole time.
Deep in the depths of the forest, lives a mysterious figure that surfs
the night under the moon. I warn you, your curse arrives soon. I sit near
my night light, writing starry eyed. But something is happening: Street
lamps are cracking, people are panicking, but I'm just sitting there-
shedding one tear. Disasters are happening this year. I mourn for those
who run and hide, cause I just bring out what's inside.
composed by: Bret Culliver/aka Cry Baby
AS THE MORNING DAWNS, ANOTHER DAY BEGINS
WITH OUR HOPE & DREAMS, WE'RE ALIVE AGAIN
WE GIVE PRAISE & GLORY, FOR THE TRUTH THAT IS IN HIM
FOR W/OUT THE BELIEF, OUR LIFE CHANCE WOULD BE GRIM
WE ARE SAVED BY GRACE, FOR GOD PLANNED IT THAT WAY
TO BE JUSTIFIED IN OUR FAITH, & WORKS IN EACH DAY
THERE IS NO LIMIT, TO THE LORD'S ABUNDANCE OF LOVE
WHICH DESCENDS FROM HEAVEN, LIKE ON WINGS OF A DOVE
Why do you love me I love you just because,
you are the love of my life, you have made
me so very happy. And I smile and say its
just because. I think God every day for
putting you in my life. When I get down
on my knees at night I ask God why he put
you in my life he whispers in my ear
The stars seem brighter
The roses sound beautiful
The wind plays with my hair
Picks me up for a ride in the clouds
My heart soon stops
My humble body tumbles down to earth
Faster then the speed of light
Lands in a field of morning glories
And its all born again.
Love is misunderstood
How can love come with such a price
But yet not be bought?
How can love be so simple
But yet be so confusing?
People say love heals all
But yet it leaves so many wounds!
Loves color is red
But yet leaves my heart so black!
Love is the opposite of hate
But yet causes so much of it!
Maybe love was never
meant to be understood!
Earth Bound Child
Earth bound child hides in the mist.
His head is in the sky
And his roots are in the ground.
I will keep you safe,
I will keep you innocent
From this hell which our enemies call home.
You long to be free of the barriers
Which keep you in my arms.
You begin to hate, the one who keeps you safe.
You long for the smell of freedom.
Child understand, I vow to teach and follow the old ways,
Thus you shall too.
I fear the enemy will twist your mind,
And steal your innocents.
I blind you for your own well-being.
The pain and anger grows with in you.
You begin to plot your freedom.
That freedom though seems so far away,
But again you are blinded.
My followers may be abandoning me,
But I still have you, my child.
Your mind is strong though,
And I fear you may drift from my arms.
So I shall take away that window,
From where your ideas flow from.
You stand up, cry and fall down to your masterís feet.
You can only just remember the idea of freedom,
But now you cannot imagine it.
This confusion lays fear in your heart.
Normality starts to fall back in place for you and I.
My hands yet again cover your eyes,
To keep you safe and innocent forever.
I hold you tight in my arms once again,
And I remind you,
That you are an earth bound child.
By Danielle Kriegler
The Acceptance of the Inevitable
Happy are they that contemplate
Nature's intricate scheme of things
And, in their minds, they can relate
To the inevitability concept It brings.
The acceptance of the inevitable:
That Nature never changes its ways
And what has been by It acceptable
Will continue to the end of days;
Its path was set from the beginning,
Its components intricately related,
Its mechanism immune to tampering,
Its destiny refusing to be deviated.
It looks upon all the human effort
To meddle in laws they cannot change
And knows that what's of real import
Humanity has no power to rearrange.
The wise quietly observe and ponder,
Unmoved by the frantic bustle about,
The futility of this labour and wonder
If the others will ever find this out.
Who knows what Iím going through,
Through this infinite darkness,
When I question whether or not
I will see the light again.
Oh how I hope just to get a glimpse of that light
That ever hopeful and radiant light
What have I already given for that light?
How much more will I give for it?
What else can I do?
Where can I go from here?
I canít move,
I canít breath,
I canít see,
Without my light.
Do you know what it feels like to be lost,
To be lost and not know the way out of anything,
Not knowing if youíre headed in the right direction,
The direction that will lead you to that ever glowing light.
Oh how that light shines,
Never fading, never dull.
What I would give to hold that light?
When I get that ever so precious light I will never let it go,
Not let it escape my grip,
A grip that would take all my strength
But still would not be enough,
My strength alone cannot hold onto that light.
Greg Van Buren
That's all I can remember.
I remember the pain.
Remembrance of the innocence he took.
I feel his hands run over my body.
As I lay on my bed, I try to ignore the feeling inside me.
The overwhelming sickness is growing stronger each minute.
Thank God he is leaving, fixing my clothes.
Trickling ever so softly down my face.
He got his pleasure, and he gave me the pain.
I lay there wondering what I did to deserve this disgrace.
I wake up the next morning, such pain I have not known.
Until I discovered them again.
I realize my dad was not so.
No, he didn't, his actions prove it.
Can never disgrace me again.
I can't let go of this pain inside
I'm like a bomb waiting to explode
I have to hold on to this pain in side
It's al I've ever known
If i suppress it, it will leave
At least that's what I hope for
But be careful now, don't step on me
Anything could make me blow
Please God! Help me! I have to let this go
I can't go on a ticking bomb, it's to out of control
If only, momma
by Diana Rivera in 2001
Whisper to me, momma words of love you never spoke
And choke your anger
And strangle that which lies within your cerebrum
And stab it
And leave it for dead
Whisper to me momma the things I never heard
The things I needed to hear when just a child was I
Whe 15 years old was I
When I awoke to bloody wrists and painted thighs
Itís too late now, momma
I bleed too much now
All the time now from my wrists and other places
Whisper to me, momma and do not shout in anger at me
Early in the morning
Late in the evening
Do not shout at me
Creepy crawly things lurk inside my mind and grow
Into my soul
Low and Behold!
I have grown
Tall sunflower shining in the glistening sky
But you deny me Momma
Momma you call me a dandelion
Momma Iím not a dandelion
You call me a dandelion in your grassy life
And you blind your eyes to the world outside the cage you built outside
Inside your mind
Whisper to me, momma and put down the hand that abuses me so
Often that I have begun to like it every day before I awake
And twice daily on the holidays
Whisper to me, momma soft and tender
And put the gun that does not kill but tortures
Me and nails me to a cross to crucify me
Momma stop it
You squeeze my heart
And I clench my fists in anger
Momma I think I may be a Jew
I think I may because
Because I think that you are Adolph Hitler
Iím looking in the mirror, mommaÖand I donít see what you see
Momma if only
Momma if only you loved me
The way I do you
by james quinton
life like time
will always move on
everyday a different song
what you had
you can never get back
don't let your world collapse
those who you love
will die one day
so don't hold back
if you have something to say
what you had
you will never get back
don't let your world collapse
life will always move on
let go of fear
and hold onto what's dear
the eternal wisdom
that's in our heads
trapped by the distance
of our voices
don't let your world collapse
what we had
we'll never get back
life moves on
In the halls of justice and law
I've seen the gavel fall
on the heads of the innocent.
(My very own head has its lumps.)
From this I learned
the State is one cruel Mother.
Once giving life,
She loves to smother
it out, with glee.
Better to lay low here with me,
than climb the tree
The only safe harbor
My song to sing...My final note on the subject of you
I thought it was, at least
over a year ago
But somehow you remain, creeping in when least expected
I saw you last weekend...you looked...SO GOOD!!
It's been so very long
Your eyes actually lit up when you said HELLO! To me!
I saw it with my own eyes...and that causes me surprise
You're just supposed to be a friend of a friend now
An acquaintance with personal history with me
I still recall the way you kissed me...and made me...
weak in the knees
Oh, how I do hate that.
I wish I could not care about you
not care if your smile is sincere, or forced
not care if you have found love
not care...if you'll be okay
That won't happen though, because I always care
I've always cared in fact
I don't want to lament about a love that never was
that could one day...be...
I need to live my life here
while you're there, wherever you may be
Protecting us all...and protecting your heart
Because that is what you do...I see through you
But tell me...do you see through me?
My Final Note on the Subject of You...maybe
Open Mic Encore - Part Two