OPEN MIC ENCORE
August, 3, 2002
hayden a. james (17 04 02)
Some days your life goes great
and your thankful to be alive.
Other days are not so good
and you feel like you can't survive.
You feel like you're drowning...
you just can't seem to catch your breath.
You think you're losing everything,
you feel there's nothing left.
Is it not hard for you to wake each morning
knowing what you've lost?
Is it not painful for you to realize
what you chose for such a cost?
How could you let your most precious treasures
slowly slip away?
Just so you could have your material pleasures
throughout the day.
You turned from us
and now you've come back from this place.
And you can't quite seem to look
your mistakes in the face.
How could you come back thinking
your position would be the same?
Don't you understand
that their feelings for you have changed?
Can you not realize
that your acceptance will take time?
My brother's love may have come easy
but it won't be the same with mine!
By Ada Croft
Into the night sky
Deep and timid
Tinged white diamonds
Like a city distant
Jazzing a soothing
Migration of melodious
Smiles patented by moment
Into my sky
By my cognac
Iím pounded inside
Of past skies shared.
Felt as Iím touched
This ebb of night
Hands reaching out
To skyís understanding
On me all the stars land.
When is it all going to end?
When you leave the fight without a friend?
Life is really hard when it beats you down,
You try to smile but you can only frown.
And now all you can do is ask why.
Just sit in your room and hope to die.
Will people figure out what was going on?
Will they know the difference of pros and cons?
You think about committing suicide,
But that's the worst thing beside,
Killing yourself slowly trying not to cry,
Always asking why,
Still wanting to die,
Wishing you could fly,
Fly away from all your problems.
Does anyone know does anyone care?
You look around and there's no one there.
It doesn't matter you can't look in their eyes.
When they break so much promises and tell so much lies.
Too many wrong decisions and mistakes,
And you realize you're about to break,
I THINK, I STARE, I GLARE, I DREAM
I FOCUS, I REMEMBER, I FORGET IT SEEMS
TO MAKE ME FLASH ALL THE MEMORIES.
IT'S NICE, IT'S FUN, IT'S COOL TO THINK , I THINK
THAT ALL THESE THINGS MAKE U HAPPY.
I THINK IT'S ALSO NOT WRONG U SEE TO DREAM THE DREAM U WANT TO DREAM
SOMEDAY IT MAY COME TRUE I THINK
BUT U MUST KNOW HOW TO MAKE IT REAL
EVEN THOUGH IT'S JUST A DREAM
NOT ALL DAYDREAMS ARE DREAMING U SEE
CAUSE MOST OF US HAVE DREAMS TO FILL
BUT IT'S JUST THE WAY WE ACT N SEE THAT MAKES PEOPLE SAY WE ONLY DREAM TO BE.
LIKE A PLANT
My life is like a plant, that will never grow,
I'm dying on the inside, in ways that'll never show.
To her I'm just a little weed, no reason to live or shine,
She's taken away my life and everything that's mine.
To her it's always 'me, me, me', she never shows respect,
This girl hurts me inside with an unforgettable effect.
I wish I could show my other friends, but I don't have any proof,
To her I'm just a grain of sand, an unimportant goof.
Lately I have made a stand, I've broken down the walls,
I've fixed up all my scars from her put downs and falls.
She is the spider, I am the fly,
Her comments make me feel like she wants me to die.
What have I done to deserve so much pain,
No happiness, laughter or increasing gain.
I cry myself to sleep, for I cannot smile,
I know the hands of God will be here in a while
By Matthew Timmons
Mine does. When the weeping stops and the tears slow. Mine does.
Awake yet lost, I ponder. Deeply entranced as the dark cloud "logic"
disappears into the furthest recesses of my mind.
Love, Hope, wonderment, and ....fear? Yes my friend, fear.
But there's no place for you here, yet you are.
No need to be afraid, I've come to embrace you.Resolutions await.
This torments me so, why have you come?
Don't you recognize me? Its ok dear friend. Pain is arising from your eyes.
I have not come to cause such hurt.
Awaken kind soul cry no longer. For this is a dream and my heart cannot bear
the tears of sorrow cascading down your cheeks.
This dream is over. For now, cry and fear no more.
When you are ready I will always be. But remember, I always am.
...........When my heart dreams, I cry.
me and you
your body in between my thighs,
your hand on my waist,
moving slowly up my stomach to my chest,
you grip my shoulders tight,
you make me feel so good,
you move your hand through my hair,
kissing me so gracefully i dare not to leave,
i wouldn't want to,
being with you it's like were one,
i don't care what goes on around us,
when i'm with you nothing else is important,
that's the way it's supposed to be,
that's the way it is,
as your body enters mine,
it's not pain it's pleasure,
the feelings i have could last forever,
and everything could be perfect,
only happy ones,
we could be one forever,
together as one,
i love you.
this poem goes to adam
When lovers meet
It was just before
we had started to explore
That tireless search for reasons.
Unexplained yet so easily understood
We stood at the threshold of a beginning that had started much before.
Standing, we extended our souls
To merge and meet
The result was tender and oh so sweet.
Racing against time
To make you mine
There was no thought as divine.
Reaching the gates at full pace
Where new frontiers began
It was the end of the race
And the beginning of a new phase.
THE SOUND OF LOVE
BY TRACY HERSKA
If you could listen to the sound of my heart
You'd know I loved you from the start
Come get close so you can hear
The sound of love so sincere
The sound of love beats strong inside
Love flows like, a roaring tide
The tide rips through the sea
A wave of love comes over me
A wave of love with each beat gets higher
Crashing down with loves desire
Loves desire flows back to the ocean
A bird flies over with beautiful motion
The beautiful motion is that of a dove
And of all this is the sound of love
By J E Moon
Has I pondered questions I had about life,
A still small voice cut to my heart like a knife!
ďThis is your father, from heaven above,
I sent you to earth an act of love.
This life is a test you were given birth.
So that you could learn your value and worth.
No you did not evolve from primeval ooze.
I created you and allowed you to choose.
To live this life, to suffer pain.
To know grief and happiness.
And compare the twain.
To learn to do the things I say.
Or follow Satan and turn away.
To be filled with pride, and burn with greed
Or love thy neighbor. Help those in need.
This is my purpose this is my plan.
To inherit my kingdom, I created Man.Ē
Feel this, and breath this
last taste of consciousness
lying in front of you now,
embracing but a strand of
and yearning to complete this
Understanding stands painful
craving the unattainable,
becoming this stone,
so hideous and vengeful,
and bound by your love.
They held him in their arms. no sound, no movement, nothing.
that was the problem, god had taken him away, to heaven they hope.
why doesn't he cry? this question echoes through the darkness of
emptiness. their son was dead. didn't take his first breath,
never cried, never saw his mum and dad. never saw anything out
in this cruel and heartless world.
their hearts ache as a part breaks away. they wanted to love,
cherish and enjoy this baby boy forever.
they will never see him smile, hear him laugh or cry, sing and
dance. he was taken away too soon.
the physical and emotional need to hold him near their heart stays
with them for as long as they live.
pain, suffering, confusing questions go through their minds day
after day, month after month.
now months later they separate and she holds another in her womb,
another chance, another chapter in their life..
LAST NIGHT I DREAMT OF YOU
by Justin M. Wilsey
Last Night i dreamt of you, dreamt of you loving me,
you were with me so high above me,
it was so real i could feel you holding my hand,
i wish i could understand why i can't have a chance,
i just want to dance with you,
every breath i breathe everything i do,
its all for you,
but dreams aren't reality, i can't make you love me,
one day the world will see,
me, at the top,
they won't laugh, i won't hurt,
no more tears to cry, falling from my eye,
but last night i dreamt of you, dreamt of you holding me,
i wish it was true, because Linda i love you...
~The Dream of Better~
The misty gray sky set the mood for the mischief full night. Thunder roared
all throughout the land, and the rain left everything so bright and sodden.
With only the short flashes of lightning guiding our way, we ran through the
woods. In between tripping over the foliage and listening to the
sounds of the night, I looked up at his face to reassure myself.
Grabbing my hand, we raced across a hill of luscious green grass. It was
there where we finally stopped to rest. His beaming eyes glared at me with a
creepy yellow glow. His cold touch was chilling, and his soft whispers put
me in a trance. I didnít want to ever be apart from him. I closed my eyes
as I felt his cringing fingers spiral around my short locks of precious
brown curls. When I least expected, he slowly leaned in and gently pressed
his lips against mine. It felt so passionate and meaningful. I laid there on
top of him, it felt as though we were in a magical world of lucidity.
Everything seemed so perfect. Then in what seemed to be an eternity, I awoke
beside him. As if we were in fairytale, vivid rays of gold sun sparkled
through the gapes of the supple white clouds. The rain had stopped, and from
the hill of which we stood upon, we could see the entire town. He held me
close as I looked at the glittering rainbow that stretched across the sky.
This endless moment has left a permanent mark on both of our heavenly faces.
The winds of heaven, mix forever with sweet emotion, all my paths lead to you
Ďhill top and low.í
You are the evening star at the end of my every day. You entered my life in an
unexpected way and saw at a glance what I needed.
There were others who passed me or met me each day; but no one took the time
Then from out of nowhere you appeared you said just
the things I wished you would say.
And you made me believe that you meant it. You did it without a touch,
without a word, without a sign.
You've done it all by Ďbeing yourself.í
Im fixed upon your eyes,
but not like i used too
this times your eyes are feeled...
with the hatred that glows from mine
today i found a new reason to hate you
today a new reason to die
i love to hate you,i hate to love you
your the victim this time
you disgust me,reputed vomit to me
makes me want to hurt you slowly
in agony you`ll cry
no longer will you do this to me
your turn to run and hide
zero to nothing feelings for you
hate is all i can find
yet im petrified when i look at you
my heart shrivels and dies
the only thing left in me for you,
is my soul filled with all your lies
WHEN YOU WAKE
Rest your head and close your eyes
Everything will be okay
For when you wake with the sweet sunrise
It will be a brand new day
Turn down the lights
and pull me close
Feel only the beating of our hearts as we lay
For when you wake with the soft morning breeze
It will be a brand new day
Relax your body and caress my soft hair
Let all of life's worries melt away
For when you wake with the warm summer scent
It will be a brand new day
Fall fast asleep and dream with me
Whisper "I love you, I'm here to stay"
For when we wake in each other's arms
It will be a brand new day
Pain, fear, confusion-despair is nothing new
Struggle overwhelming-transparent clouds of blue.
Bleak, dark, grim-sharp edges of despair
Invasion of the mind and soul-forbidden tender care.
Prisoner of illusion, helpless from within
Shattered glass, broken dreams, unsparing silent sin.
Silver waves of peril rush upon the shore
Cryptic trepidation found its way once more.
In solitude, Invisible-fallen from the storm
Unimagined turmoil compels the newfound norm.
The battle of the illness-the curse it fights at will
Burning hearts, restless minds weep twilight tears that fill.
Hang on, hold tight, be strong-light suddenly appears
Fragile rays of hope lost between the tears.
Foreign shades of rainbow dance across the sky
Chilling thoughts of terror disappear and die.
Happiness awaits, the road ahead is long
Your strength, Our love, New dreams,
Come back where you belong.
The end of imagination.
The bound of uniqueness.
The limit of curiosity.
The extent of inspiration.
The rim of wonder.
The realm of the unknown.
The domain of the universe.
The restriction of inquisitiveness.
The confine of question.
The narrowness of creativity.
The restrain of invention.
The edge of ingenuity.
The final frontier of the mind.
LARONDA R. BELL
THE AIR I BREATHE.......
you are like fresh fallen snow before the
dawn, beautiful in all
you are like the red of a rose... magnificent
you are like the rain on a hot summers night,
sensual, sexy and
you are like the sun after the rain always
Baby, you are like the air I breathe, VERY
HE`S AFTER YOUR SOUL
Prince of Darkness I`ve heard him called
He`s the one waiting for us to fall
He tells us all to Cheat ,Lie and Steal
Even with some he tells them to kill
He is so happy when your living in sin
Our foundations of home he destroys within
Thrown out of Heaven he wants revenge
Now our LORD he wants to avenge
To Our Father he asks us to swear
Soon his numbers he`ll want us to wear
In schools with our children he will be
Sometimes he tells them a gun they need
He promises a life of riches and charm
He tells them that drugs do them no harm
He says adultery is fine these days
But you`ll be the one with sins to pay
Don`t listen to him or you`ll go to jail
Even worse he will take you to Hell
I just thought you might need to know
The Prince of Darkness is after your soul
The most horrible fate I could ever imagine
Would be to lose you.
May it be that another stole your heart.
Or that your death stole us apart.
I could cope better knowing you are alive and well.
Than to know you are gone forever.
OH! How could I ever cope?!
How could I not cry?
I just don't know what I would do!
If I were to lose you.
From Darkmess To Light
I sit in depths of darkness
as memories start to fade.
Smoking away the pain that
only I have made.
I ponder in my head all
of those I blame
I take another toke
cursing every name
With every inhalation
my body starts to shake
I don't know how much more
my body is gonna take.
I feel my heart is pounding
I don't really care
I deserve another hit my life
is less than fair
I would steal, lie and cheat
I would do most anything
to get another hit
and curb my strong cravings.
I lost the trust of family and friends
I said to hell with them
the only thing I truly needed
a lighter ,some crack and a stem.
Everybody told me I was losing
all my health
At least I am not hurting anyone
I cant begin to tell you how
long I believed the lies
but that's the mind of an addict
they say the souls the first to die.
While sitting in an 8 by 12
with nothing to do but think
I realized this way of life
has really started to stink.
Sobriety seemed so far away
I couldn't go it alone.
Getting high for so long
is all i had ever known.
I got some help from rehab
meetings, family and friends
the nightmare I was living was coming to an end.
I realize the hurt I caused
and even though recovery is tough
its also lots of fun.
The road ahead is long
and sometimes very odd
but I have support from family and friends
and a new relationship with God
My family has welcomed me back
my friends I have a few.
To all of those who helped me
I want to say thank you.
I want you all to know there is help
I want to make a stand
If I can get recovery then
written by Gwendolyn
i'll miss your hugs, ill miss your kisses
i'll remember those eyes, and try make some wishes
i remember the time we were together i felt so happy and never better,
i love you now,
i love you always
You told me we were meant to be
You'd never leave me
And would always love me
Well, it wasn't hard for me to see
That what you say isn't what you show
Tell me, did you really think I would fall hard?
You offered me the world
Right at my fingertips
Did you really think I would take it?
Here is the difference between you and me
I told you we weren't meant to be
I told you I'd never leave you
And I would always love you
Things fell apart,
There was nothing anyone could do
You left me in a time of desperation
To this day, I still can't believe I survived you
We've moved on
To a bigger and brighter future
I'm still hurting
And sometimes I wonder if deep inside you are too
Don't be strong for me
That's not what I need from you
Just be here and show me your true self
I have a crush
Itís so hard to tell
Every single day
I feel the worst canít you tell.
I wish for you at night
When the stars shine bright.
I pray for the day
When youíll want me in your life.
I cry because it hurts
To see you everyday
To know and hope
You feel the same way.
I want to say Hello,
But Iím scared of rejection
Iím scared one day
Youíll let go of your protection.
I donít want
That one thing that
Guys all want.
I want your charm,
Just think, maybe one day
Weíll be together.
Maybe then youíll see how
The rain can tell the weather.
But for now, Iím still asleep and dreaming of you,
one day God will send a gift like you.
By: Tiffany Shea Gay
Love comes with many feelings,
We say Love is happy,
We don't want to say, that it sometimes brings pain,
We want to remember our First Love,
We want to remember good things,
Not pain and sorrow,
Sometimes Love can cause a fight,
It just might,
We don't always want to pick,
Cause a fight might start again,
So, We make Love happy,
We give it to each other,
So, they can pass it around,
Love is a miracle,
Make the best of it,
Try to have Love last forever,
Some Love is true and works forever,
Others seem to struggle,
Sometimes Love is confusing....
If our Love is True and Real,
Than tell me,
I Love You!
Those three words mean the world to me!
I love the way you look at me,
As though I'm all the you can see.
I love the taste of salt on your lips,
And the caress of your fingertips.
My heart is yours for the taking
This can't be a mistake we're making.
When I'm with you things can't go wrong
I've wanted to tell you this for so long.
You've asked before how I feel
But I couldn't say, it didn't seem real.
Sick of all the one night stands,
I am putting my heart in your hands.
I pray you feel this way too
And we will find a love forever new.
Until the day we have to part
You are the keeper of my heart
Across the galaxy
Above the earth
Among the stars
Through the night
Inside of me
Outside the real world
Within my head
Beyond earthly troubles
I find peace, joy, happiness.
I find solitude.
I find love.
I find you.
In my dream
Never forget how much I love you
Never forget how much I care
Never forget how I'm always there
Never forget my glare and flair
Never forget how much I love you
Never forget how we can talk about things out of the blue
And how our love grew
Never forget how true I am to you
Do you remember all of the good times and the bad?
Do you remember the funny times and the sad?
Or the times that we haven't yet had?
I'm glad I can love a person as much as I love you.
Even when I'm raving mad or sad,
Or If times were bad
You've always been there,
And I swear your scent was In the air,
Even If you couldn't be there you were In my heart and In my soul.
You made me whole
Just never forget how much I love you.
Cassandra Celestia Hayden
Love knows not me,
For I am loveless.
Bowing down on one knee,
As I wait for Lady Love.
A lifetime has come,
And a lifetime has gone.
I waited all along,
For the touch of Lady Love.
Have I been forgotten?
Or is it not yet time?
I search with a yearning,
Hoping love will be mine.
As the years go by,
I sill stand alone.
Lady Love has surpassed me,
Never stopping at my home.
My heart shall remain empty,
How I wish I could cry.
I know there's no hope,
Of Lady Love at my side.
Stand in sand, hand in hand,
Tears go flowing red.
Come into my far away land,
You don't even have to leave your bed.
Dare to dream
For dreaming saves the eternal soul.
Dream a dream, with no visible seam,
And for once, you will be whole.
Amazing visions of a future discovered,
Yet clouded for moments
Sincerity for compassion
Will it ever fade away?
Struggles in solitude, questioning purpose
Has forgiveness passed me by?
Am I heard, am I ignored
Hands must wash,
Screaming silences must cease
Will this never end? A terrible silence for days now shattered from sin
Curtains fall from love and grace, changing the hearts of those who embrace
The center of being the love of a tree so strong through family
Where is the truth, will it make itself known? How much longer will
These unheard thoughts be spoken, a violent intrusion divides us all
And we melt into a sea of disarray
The faith of a few held together a trial of so many it seems that only the
chosen one could have directed perfection of this many
Always bound by a deeper root which leads to conviction
My prayers are answered and these nearest me were my mission
FEMININE AND YOUNG
with the make up
people want her
All she's really got are
two strong legs
all her uncertainties
are a heavy weight
Mama taught me how to sing
Before your destined day in May we use to walk together side by side
a brief pump from the inhaler to restore your shallow breath
side by side walking in stride careful not to quicken the pace so that I
might enjoy the easiness of you breathing
we are unmoved by the lightness of our pockets so much delight in our
stealing brief side glances of your face while your voice interrupts the
sounds of our ghetto orchresta
out from your soul the old spiritual hymn is released from your lips
singing to his glory
me checking to see if another soul is enjoying your street worship
elated by your heavenly earthy voice I would sing the tune in my head
"Jesus, you know I'm a po' and a needy, Jesus
Jesus, you know I'm a sick and a tired, Jesus"
Grandmommy used to sing this to me when I was a little and you'll sing it to
you have to moan when you sing it
mama looking at me smiling cause she know I can't moan I don't know how
You'll learn how to moan you will learn when you get all those children and
the man you love got eyes for another
you will learn how to moan when you ain't got no money to feed them little
nappy head things
and when your just about ready to collapse cause you ain't got no more
energy you'll remember these words and you'll know how to moan cause the
good lord will give it to you
Broken Thoughts And Empty Dreams.
Scattered throughout the blackest of hole's.
Are the broken thought's of my tired soul.
Longing for some place to exist.
Only finding refuge In loneliness.
Forever sleep is where I lay.
Watching my tired soul decay.
In the emptiness of dreams.
Where everything is nothing that it seems.
Still searching for something to believe.
Feel like I've died yet I still breathe.
For what reasons do I keep myself alive.
Certainly not to be told more of your lie's.
To see you disappear without goodbye's.
To see these tears fall from my eye's.
To wake up just so I can die.
To wake up just so I can cry.
Why do I let you torture me like this?
holding on seems useless.
Just wasted time spent on this rhyme.
These Thought's of you wont leave my mind.
Look at what you've done to me.
Someone help i'm so diseased.
Free me from my intellect.
Free me from my disrespect.
Look at what you've done to me.
The only problem here is ME.
A fire blazed from the pupil of his eye
Not a fire stricken by hatred,
As many would feel here,
But this feeling was solely from pain.
Self-pit and hurt fueled this fire.
Like melted wax from a burning candle,
Warm tears streamed down his cheek.
She did not care,
As she had promised she would.
THERE'S A HOLE IN MY HEART
There's a hole in my heart, i can feel it i know.
A hole in my heart that doesn't show, from the outside.
It doesn't show on my chest, on my face is the place you can see it
There's a hole in my heart, i pray to fell it.
What can i pray? this heart to heal.
It takes time and hope and love and you!
I'm an addict for love
With a lovers addiction
So much like a deadly obsession
I am broken by many transgressions
I'm an addict for love
With a lovers addiction
Enslaved by the heart
Tormented by hatred
Chained by overwhelming desire
Passionately I burn with its fire
I am an addict for love
With a lovers addiction
No way to escape
The prison I am bound to
Because its only an obsession
I'm an addict for love
With a lovers addiction
The true two
An hour glass, so many grains of sand, falling into the bottom glass each
paired side by side. To the very last grain. The journey they
had rubbing one another possible touching the one. The one that it
was meant to be with side by side, What happens when the hour glass is
turned over again will those same two end up side by side. Though
thousands will be between the two will they be true and wait for that hour
glass to be turned over one last time. Knowing they were meant to be.
What happens if the hour glass breaks? Will the wind blow and weave
out the untrue, leaving only the two? What about the rain? The
rain beating against the two wouldn't they eventually become one.
What about the others They had their chance too but were untrue.
Didn't have faith in themselves were too busy stuck wondering about how
many instead of which one. So they sunk into the earth being parted
away from there true one for eternity.
I feel the separation between us grow,
more and more each day.
It doesnít seem to stop,
despite what I say or do.
I have tried everything,
but time continues to take you away.
You seem to notice,
but say nothing.
There seems to be nothing I can do,
it brings me to tears.
Knowing that a part of my life,
is slipping away.
I want to say itís a dream,
that itís not really true.
Why would I come up with something like this,
unless it was really true.
I keep asking myself,
Do I really care?
Or am I just trying to escape my fear.
Fear of losing you,
Not knowing how to react,
Or what to really do.
Do I let things remain the same,
or face then head on.
The decision keeps dwelling in my mind,
to just let it all go.
Iíll leave it up to you,
and what you want to do.
I just know that in my mind,
it would be hard to live without you.
The gloomy skies loomed above,
As her soul slowly darkened.
Her heart wept,
For her one and only true love.
She had lived
A lifetime of regrets,
But none the same
He was her everything,
He was her life.
Until the devilish arms
Of betrayal had coldened
His fiery, warm heart.
Coaxing him into their
Web of lies.
He left her crying
In a heap,
Her tears freezing
On her cheeks.
Now her heart
Is frozen too,
And her lips
The bluest blue.
Will she ever love
Or is she forever
tired of patience
visions of her appear as each daunting door is locked
a "friendly reminder of all my emotions you blocked
memories fighting through what was the getting over stage
met number two at what wise women would call a young age
but nothing can beat the feeling of nineteen and alone
asking too much in return for the abundance of love i've shown
do you remember the cards i made for you on sad soaking sundays?
what to me was forever with sincerity mirrored an immature phase
he reminded me love is patient though he must have never met you
i long for the day when you will be forced to feeling blue
One day you will come for me
and ask me to forgive thee.
One day you will remember me
and ask why I'm still in your memory?
One day you will cry for me
and shout to the Heavens why this had to be?
One day you will not sleep
and wonder if it's because of me?
One day you will email me
and ask to be my friend again.
And one day I will ask thee
why it took you so long to reply to me!
Rain Rain go away, come again another day.
Or are you here to stay? Wash it all away.
Thunder crashes, lightning gleams,
Nothing is the way it seems.
Down pours the rain all over me,
I may be wet, but I am not clean.
Clothing soaked, no shelter at all.
I look at the sky, and down it falls.
But still I look and see,
The way they look, at me.
Pavement is hot, look how it steams.
Across the ground, there is a gleam.
The rain has gone away, it did not want to stay.
Alone I walk, along the street,
Hoping for another chance to meet.
To meet that cold, gentle rain.
I hope it can cure my pain.
So that is the ending, as it should be.
The ending of the rain, or was it of me??
NIKKI GRIFFITHS 1/7/02
I REALLY DO WANT TO DIE, NO' ONE DESERVES THIS LIFE
I SEE IT IN EVERY WAKING MOMENT, ALL THESE WORRIES AND STRIFE.
DO YOU DESERVE THIS? I THINK NOT!! I ALWAYS BLAMED ME
I CARRIED GUILT IN MY HEART AND SOUL. THIS LASTED LIKE ETERNITY
NOW, I'VE TURNED THE DIFFERENT CORNER, I DECIDED THIS ISN'T RIGHT
WHY WAS I ALWAYS, ANGRY, WALLOWING IN SELF-PITY NOW I'LL PUT UP THE FIGHT
I'M NOT GOING TO TAKE THIS SH** NO MORE!!
I'M FAR BY FAR BETTER THAN THIS!!
I THINK I'M STRONG......
ONE KNOCKBACK. I FIND I'M WEAK AGAIN
I FAILED WHAT I SET OUT TO DO, I'M ONLY HUMAN
I'M ALWAYS REMINDING MYSELF I'M DIFFERENT, NOT THE SAME
IF I WAS, I'D ONLY FILL THIS WORLD WITH MORE MISERY AND PAIN.
SOMETIMES I FEEL MORE ALIENATED THAN I REALLY SHOULD
WHY DO PEOPLE BLANK ME, WHO DO THEY PERCIEVE ME AS?
I'M NOT STUCK-UP. OR THINK I'M THE BEST
I WISH THEY WOULD UNDERSTAND.......
I'M EASY GOING, FUNNY AND HONEST
DON'T KEEP PUSHING ME ASIDE...
I CAN'T HANDLE REJECTION NO MORE
I WANT TO BE FREE.
YET I LOVE YOU......
IF YOU LOVE ME?!
ISN'T THIS SUPPOSED TO BE TRUE?
WHY DO I FEEL SO MUCH BITTER?
WHY DO I ALWAYS ASK THE WRONG QUESTIONS?
WHY DO PEOPLE TREAT ME WRONGLY?
LIKE I'M JUST TRASH AND LITTER!!
I'D GIVE PEOPLE SUCH HAPPINESS, IF ONLY GIVEN HALF THE CHANCE
Over the top!!!
By Grace Lin
When thinking you're beaten, you already are.
When saying that you dare not, you are not believed by people anymore.
Everyone likes to succeed,
but only people with awareness and
conscious can do it.
You will never know what kind of person you will be in the future.
Nevertheless, if you think that you would like
to be more relaxing spiritually and physically, it's almost certain that you
will not be successful in your life.
If you think you'll lose, you've lost.
Cause out in this world failure is the easiest thing to find.
We all know,
Many people have their daydreams but few achieve theirs
you need to dream on about your
future cause success begins with a fellow°¶s will.
My dear friends:
Hold each opportunity that
appears in your life.
Be serious and polite when talking to anyone.
Use not only your hands but also your brain.
Taste the bitter in your life and try to feel its sweet.
Don't be shy to make friends and set your own social relationship.
Do not put off things that you must do today.
Work hard, find out the extreme in you and get over your top.
Your daily lives have no difference from those in the kindergarten.
The regulations are not anymore written on the wall of the classroom, but
are now in your heart.
Follow the simple rules you learned in the kindergarten.
Smile to people around you. Eat well, talk appropriately, keep the toilet
clean and listen to your teachers.
Share your happiness and accept other°¶s feeling which you might be not
You do good things not for success, but because you are accustomed to them.
After doing things above,
Victories that means what you want start to visit you.
At this moment, you need to be stronger and more courteous to treat your
Very Important Persons.
Try to keep all of them cause those are why you keep fighting for.
you realize that
the guy who succeeds,
is the guy who gets over his top,
keeps struggling and always believes he can!
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