And i know you were sent to me from above.
And in the morning you are my light.
That you would be near instead of far.
And the promises i've made I will keep.
And I pray that we will never part.
I think of you in the morning and I think of you at night. My heart is
always with you. You have never left my sight. Though I cannot touch you
I feel you all around. Your smile still makes my heart beat faster and your
voice: Oh, what a beautiful sound.
A tear drop falls on your picture when I hold it close to my heart. I
cannot forget you and I so do not want to part. Yet I know that I am no
good for you and cannot be the one. I must be strong now and keep up my head.
Yet I want to run.
Please remember me with fondness and with care. I love you and always
will be the one who caught your stare. I know we both must carry on with
our lives lived separately. Yet this I must insist upon: You will be in
my heart indefinitely.
o blind fool! Can thou not see!
If joined with her, you can never be.
Will you heed my warnings?
Or presume my alerts come from jealousy.
Death part my name unto thine lips,
If ever I fib with accusations like this.
Denounce thy self of thine foolish thoughts,
Before my cautions enact their parts.
Your truth of love hath come to be shown,
But never would I kill your love...
the benefit of my own.
O speak! Those precious words of mine!
I've loved you since our wake of time.
Creation will never exceed on my part,
This sorrow I loathe will remain in my
Fear sits by but it
I won't let it control me like it did the "lie"
I try, I've tried, and I'm trying still... to let this ride...
I know thoughts of me can become trife
FYI- I still one day want to become your wife
If you still want me in your life...
But you might fly
Away because here is no longer where you wish to stay
Everything will be okay...
Even if things are not the same
We will continue to move even if it rains on this parade
Love you sweetie... love you today and always
Our lips meets... barely incomplete...
I immensely begin to feel this heat that creeps all over me
You smile you know my style besides it's been awhile
You know I want you to hit me from behind even make me cry
Your touch brings total rush I call your name... I love playing this game
WHO WOULD'VE KNOWN?
With every lonely sparkle in my eye
It seemed to be that time was flying by
Who would have known that this was meant to be?
I never would have thought that you'd be loving
I never thought anybody would love me without
But I guess those thought are just out-dated
Now here I am with this amazing love you've
helped me create
Exasperatingly I still remember our first date.
It should be considered a crime
That you stole my heart in such a short time
But I'm happy just knowing you're mine!
The hate of love
Cody Don Ramer
I hate this
this feeling of longing
This feeling for love
the love that can not come
I hate the distance
The distance of love
I hate the thought of you
I hate every thing about u
But I love the hate that hates you
And as time goes by
I may I may not forget you
But always there will be a soft spot
in this eternal dark whole that they call a
heart…… … …….
" Without yourself "
Vanya Karkovich, 2001.
pain left with you, in you, around you. I shall never
again with the look -
to see, expectant, questing, wishing at least to
contact. It is a sad fact that you are different,
you are not in yourself, that you love all you do not
search for that you have not, know all that in
you do not know that all that is not given.
morning you gulped down poisoned milk
house of babel, of sobs of the despairing, all those
would correct their incoherence.
cold morning you fell down fifty steps
were left for dead, like slaughtered deer, sixty
kilometres away from the yellow house where you have
screamed each tormented night. Demons would have been your
and a poet killed you in the poem "DAMNATION IN
your grave is flowerless; desperately grey,
restless, exhausted Lassie sleeps with you.
As I lay me down to cry!
As I lay me down to cry,
I pray "Please Lord just let me die,"
You keep me here every day,
And yes I hate it in every way.
I'm sick of not knowing anything to say,
Besides "Should I take my life this very day?"
A lot of people say I shouldn't die,
But I truly think it's all a lie.
I'd love to just take this knife
And end all my strife.
How could he treat me this bad,
It's no wonder why i'm always mad.
He claimed to care,
but we're those feelings really there?
I feel like scum in this pond,
I can't go on living my life like some happy love song.
Yeah I know he doesn't care
And that we have no memories to share,
But why is my love so strong,
For someone that's so wrong?
Why does all this happen to me?
Can't anyone see,
Im dying each time they mention his name
Every time I see him it's all the same.
I'm so full of doubt
And there's no other way out.
So Lord im doing your job,
Because I can no longer wait,
Please oh Lord open up your gate,
And now watch me die,
As I lay me down to cry.
leaves start to wither
tears start to fall
dying love emotion
bleeding heart and soul
here for one last kiss
ending my life of bliss
by the time that you'll be gone
i'll try to be a man
to stand this hurt and pain
as i cry amidst the rain
When there is no light
and all is dark
When sweet love so bright
is no longer there
When you long to take flight
just tp fond you have lost your wings
When there is no fight
to even attempt to win
When melancholy's bite
has you paralyzed
When there's no great height
to which you can climb
When no words to write
will come to mind
When you cry out at night
and there's no one to hear
When you scream in fright
and there's no one to comfort you
Now that is loneliness
Why can't I love?
Why can't I be loved?
There is love in the air
But no love for me
I want to love but scared of it
I am scared of being loved
Or just being hurt
I had a love but he hurt me
I hurt him
I want him to be my love
I want him and him only
I know I can't have him
So I look for a guy that's like him
Can't find a damn soul
He is the only love for me
The only person in this world that could be him
I is guys that are in to me but they are not me
And I am not for them
Why can't I move the hell on?
Why can't I get him the hell out of my head?
Is it because he's the one?
I HATE being by myself!!!
I hate being lonely
I feel empty without someone
But then I am picky on who I want to be with
So how can I find someone like that
What I think?
but i do!
im not supposed to love you
im not supposed to care
im not supposed to live my life wishing you was there
but i know that i love you
and i hope that someday you can love me too
by kerry louise brown
light a candle of friendship,
never let the flame burn low,
for all the world can be lit
by one's friendly glow.
R. Andrew Daniel-Drake, 2002
I seem to have misplaced Myself,
and I cannot recall where
I saw Me last,
Or where I set Me down.
Circumstance continually conspires
To keep Me from me,
In a confounding, connived contrivance of
Hiding Me from my own eyes.
Have you, perhaps,
Either on a milk carton,
Or wandering aimlessly
Through a department store,
Looking for the warm, safe hand
That will take Me
I must be around here somewhere.
Where else could I be?
I've looked in every nook,
And in every cranny.
Am I behind a drapery?
Or under a table?
Am I in a shadow?
Or am I in plain sight?
Have I been here all the time,
Or have I gone the way of
I seem to have forgotten
How to read the map
That leads me to
The "X" that marks the spot,
Where the Me that is
Waits for you
To find Me.
Elvira van Buren
She's unreasonable, insecure and mean
the first to give up
when life comes in between
her only wish was to matter
but her self-esteem is totally gone
and it won't get any better
She wants to be like all teens
she wants to enjoy every breath
at only sixteen she's forgotten what that means
she just wants to be dead
Her self hate made her miss the rescue boat
it won't be back for long
she sticks her fingers in her throat
trying to make up for all she did wrong
To make herself feel a little better
she screams at everyone
she's the suicide letter
from someone who's long gone
EARLY NOVEMBER, OUTSIDE
Gray sky clings, looms low
over cold granite. Hives
of the educated huddle inside
Huddle amongst brown bottles
and flickering boxes.
The gray will not break
for several months now.
I stand in biting air,
Snow coming down,
Pelting, Taste of reality
As it hits my skin.
Life dissipates, everything I knew is gone, no more traces in my blood, I
hit the bottle hard. Transient nostalgic feelings hurts like the
blade, the ether conspires to destroy me. Self imposed
exile, my blood runs cold.
people take it upon themselves to judge others
who they don't know at all
ignorant words coming from ignorant mouths
causing society to fall
we have all been judged by others
for so very long
lord please give me the power to ignore them
and the strength to prove them wrong
The Faults and Impurities of People
To which we all must conceive,
To what we all should believe,
What is good and what is evil,
Never stands a chance against rightness.
Today to which we all proclaim,
Bad, evil, and also shame,
Is never right and should be
Shunned forever in the pits
Of Hades. Believe in the healing
Of the ill. Work, toil, of
The labor, to claim the money
Which is rightfully
Ours to reach above
Our Foremost, farthest
An Unfortunate Awakening
I open my eyes and breathe you in.
Why do some things end before they begin?
As I worship you in my arms in the milky twilight,
We both know nothing will come from this night.
The desire and passion released this evening
Are all forgotten in an unfortunate awakening.
What did I do? What did I say?
I dream only of you, day after day.
Or is it you? Does someone take your place?
Or do I simply dream of a beauty without a face?
Why did you leave me alone in the dark debating,
Over the love that was lost in an unfortunate awakening?
I stayed up all night to watch you sleep,
so if I am dozing in my oatmeal
don't look at me with cruel eyes
I only want to know your beauty,
I only want to look upon your face
soft with sleep.
No faults are mine!
You said that, aren't no time for you to be putting blame on me. What have
I done wrong to you? What did I do hurtful? See...You did something wrong
and too harm to me.
Man! I thought we where good friends, you told me you promised to keep the
secret from the talks we have had since. But now you see I'd better think
off cause now that I can see that you aren't my good friend like a big or
Right now, the answer back to you is why I don't even talk, write, call or
e-mails you is because of what I've heard now are rumor all about me and I
know you are the only person who is liking for all the these troubles
between me and the other instead us.
Nowhere although my life times, a best friend will never trust again.
Moreover I would never trust them but will always have forgive.
HELPING A FRIEND
by Ginger Dorsey
If your friend was in trouble,
would you help them out?
If your friend was being chased by the cops,
would you not shout?
If your friend was doing drugs and alcohol,
would you help her or him?
If you friend was drowning,
would you die for them?
to sleep you went
not to wake
your fun is gone
your hurt is left.
love of people
as full as the sun
on the beach, now you run.
TO BE ACCEPTED
I try hard to be accepted,
i can't take it,
harsh words said,
voices in my head,
include me in the plan,
help me maintain stability,
hold my hand,
my soulmate your knowledge,
that leads to logic,
has captured me within,
my soul has opened up,
you gave me the strength to love again,
patience is a virtue,
look its brought me closer to you,
intelligence is what i seeked,
i found you,
love is what i sought,
i have you.
Don't be afraid that I will go -
As well, ask the moon to leave the sky;
It isn't possible! So you should know,
You'll never hear me say goodbye.
Don't be afraid that love will run
Into the arms of someone as fair;
No one's as fair compared to you.
And believe me, I more than care
About your life and the happiness
That I can see you've found in me.
Think of the love you've filled me with
And you will find reality
Enhancing the love I give to you
When we're apart and when we touch;
Don't be afraid, whatever you do,
Because I vow to you this much:
I'll be here through sun and rain,
Laughter, tears, and pain and sorrow,
Holding you close and loving you more
With each and every tomorrow.
By Emilie Smith
I guess I ?m ugly.
I?m always alone.
Thought I had a love, but he
Never really loved me.
Then he found another and left me,
Why am I always alone?
Is it my destiny?
I am a good,
caring person, caring an affectionate,
gifted and talented.
By Dark Ravenwolfe
Misunderstood, Shunned, Hated... these are just a few terms
"normal" human beings use to describe me. They fear me because
they do not understand me. Am i not real? do i not bleed? No! i do not exist
to society, I am nothing but a dark silhouette against the pale moon. A pale
emotionless figure, hair dark as night itself, long and flowing that blows
wildly with the evenings breeze. Standing there watching the population kill
itself on money and greed, I realize I know something that they don't
know... And I laugh to myself thinking about it. But i will never say what exactly
that fact of information I know is, no not at all. These ignorant morons can
figure it out for themselves, that is if they really want to know. Such
simple minds these human beings are. Sleep, eat, procreate, spreading more
of their kind, more filth, more wastefulness, I continue to stand motionless
with a look of semi-amusement on my face, I open my mouth and laugh, I laugh
at this joke called civil! ization and this illusion called life. Just let
me be myself, why cant you let me? I am so misunderstood.
Once it begins,
it must not
We come openly
and swiftly into
rooms of different
Conceal the box
of violet wishes.
Perceive the scent
For once it begins,
it must not
Have you ever wondered,
what happens to those who've died?
they become angels
and are always by our side.
Whether you're lonely or sad,
or even when you're fine,
an angel will protect you
even if you gave no sign.
She will come down gracefully,
to look upon and watch you
and make sure you don't get hurt
in anything you do.
Remember that my friends
when you're far away from me
an angel will come to see you
and help to comfort thee.
I could love me as much as you do.
Then remember why I don't anymore.
I'm leaving this desert of salted lovers.
I'm leaving like no one has left before.
I wasn't leaving again.
Then remember why I don't anymore.
Love was so blind, right from the start,
That day I remember you captured my heart,
That first time I told you I loved you so much,
I hungered emotionally the day we could touch,
That time came around, at first we did meet,
There's nothing could ever, those feelings compete,
Of love that I felt, with that first lasting kiss,
Its only right now that I know what I miss,
To want you, to have you is my greatest need,
More of this love is just what we need,
Its not much more longer, that we have to wait,
The loneliness hurts, missing the closeness I hate,
But we both know now what we have in store,
And that was decided by fate and Loves law,
Won't be long now before were together,
Our set in stone feelings lasting forever.....
"Not Enough Time"
I sit and wonder why?
Why did he take you?
What was it that deserved this?
Never got to know you
We never got to share that tight bond.
Yes we were sisters
Felt like we were strangers
Now you're gone.
You helped me realize
How short life can be.
There are so many things
I never got to tell you,
I'm happy you're my big sister.
The worst thing is Brandy
I never got a chance to say good-bye.
Love is river
That flows down
At times it could
Be tranquil as
Hard as it seems.
But then there are
The river will shake
And the differences
Between land and the
River will start
Over all the shaking
And quaking that is
Caused the river calms
Down and the problems
And differences are soon
WHAT IS LOVE
By: Katherine Davis
Emotions are only feelings,
yet feelings are more than words.
Imagine someone reading your thoughts.
Thoughts are more than dreams.
Could you see being without them?
Dreams are all that is surreal,
and yet are nothing more than beautiful thoughts.
Love is truly beautiful and is more than any expressions could ever be
Love cannot be told.
It is not words, thoughts, dreams, or feelings.
Oh, why is love so easily felt,
but yet... emotions are just feelings.
everyone knows, everyone but you
i told then all by mistake
i wish you had a clue
that my life is a fake
they laugh and joke about you
but you are what completes me
i have yet to let you know
how i really feel
but when i finally do
i hope it's your heart i steal
i would do anything for you to see
what you mean to me
how i wish i could turn back time
aat least four years in the past
maybe then you would be mine
everytime i see you
i look into your eyes
and i seem to get a clue
you know my life is now full of lies
four short years ago life was so clear
i thought i loved someone else
but now i realize all along
it's you i'v always wanted to be near
everyone needs a second chance
i just hope you think so too
anytime i see you i want dance
i want to dance with you
i'v been told beware
you are not right for me
to all of them myself i can take care
i woke up this morning with thoughts of you
woke up happy then i turned blue
i came to remember you were no longer around
made my smile turn into a frown
if only i cold hold you one more time
if only i could again make you mine
i am not asking for forever, just one more day
to have you around and tell you what i wanted to say
tell you i love you without holding back
shower you with all the feelings you thought i lacked
to feel your skin when we make love all night
to tell you how you make even the darkest day seem bright
oh the things i missed out on and the things we could have shared
if only i would have shown you my heart; if only i had dared
i guess now we will have to talk in my dreams
and make it real for all it seems
for without you i am not whole
cause when you left you took with you my heart and soul
I love the way you laugh and smile
Whenever you're around it's all worthwhile
When i'm down you make me laugh
Telling me stuff about you're past
I love the way you wear your caps
And where you fight with the toilet taps
I love it when you stare at me
You don't care who's there to see
Whenever you're around there's always a pound
Of your sweet loving heart
That's always cared from the very start!!!!!!!
Whistle and I will run to you,
Call and there I will be in a flash,
So fast my heels will be aflame,
My heart singing your name,
My pulses quicken,
I dream of you at night.
Oh I miss you, oh I need you my love,
Dare I wish for just one thing,
That is to be held and loved,
By someone as good as you.
My love I have waited for me an eternity,
To have someone like you in my life,
And here you are what shall I do,
Do I reach for you my hearts desire,
Or do I wait for you.
Tell me in words so sweet what I am to do my love,
To make it so we never part,
Never be lonely, be always together,
Our love shimmers in the night sky.
I saw you that one night my heart stood still,
My life was full I'm am no longer alone,
Oh I cant ever thank you,
Enough my love for finding me,
For believing in me.
For giving me hope for the future,
At last I can say I am truly happy,
You fill my soul with your sweetness,
With your presence,
Your voice, your touch.
Oh I am so full of you inside my soul,
I wish so much for it to shine out to show,
That true love if sought will be found,
I wish it to every soul in the world.
For all the lonely people in the world,
There is hope in this life,
And at your lowest know this it does end,
The pain goes and your soul will live again.
i'd love to be able to fly
right up into the sky
i'd fly with the birds in the fine air
with feathers instead of hair
i'd fly around the world
i'd fly write up to you
i'd fly over the big ocean
I wouldnt take any poison
i'd love to fly I sometimes cry
and one day were all going to die
A Haiku to Think About
eyes engulfed in tears
crying in your sad lonely heart
you're gone- i'm not here
Stop and look around.
There is much to see out there.
Start your adventure.
Sun rises again
The start of another day
futures to be held
Time passes me by
As the hands tick on the clock
Soon my time will come.
There is a flag of
red, white, and blue swaying
in the air so free.
I love to hunt
Drawing my bow and aiming
The deer is my prey
Doors are left open
Some are shut right in your face
Gentle and swaying
Whispering her quiet songs
Cool against your face.
I got a new dog
the little puppy is cute
except when he bites
The sun has set
Its time to jump into bed
Relaxed and dreaming
In her expressions
I lose all reality
The thought hit his brain
It was driving him insane
how can he be blamed?
loud screaming students
I race to get my work done
at last, the bell rings
Just like a car crash
I had nothing left to say
A new day arrives
the sun rises and it sets
A day has gone by
I love her great laugh
I love her wonderful smile
she lights up my day
Silky black material, softly caressing my skin; whispering to me
secrets I do not understand...Yet I spot him, as he stands alone in the
empty dark night, with my eating heart grasped tightly in his hands...
It is yet still beating, with my innocent blood still surging through
every bulging vein...I also see a terrified little girl standing before him
with a deep sorrowful tear-stained face; crying tears of blood, slowly
dissolving her smile among new pain...
Her itching at her skin, burning, urgently ripping at her until all
her strength is drained...So feareful and terrified, something eating away
at her; I see through her eyes, feel her pain, share her fears and dreams...
I again spot him, with something still held closely to his steady
body, with my heart trembling in his white as snow hands...His eyes so dark
and coldly stare into ones soul, seeming ot enable him to read through me;
his eyes so filled with anger hate fire...
Blazing fire with slashes of red lightening stabbing a wound into
one's heart, my heart; He's dressed in all black dark clothing matching the
pitch-black veil of night that is blanketed over my eyes, making it more
difficult to see...
He stands there, alone, waiting...It's about that time that I realize
that this isn't a nightmare or a vision...I am looking into a mirror; it was
merely a memory...
A memory that I thought I had forgotten, that I had tried so hard to
forget...The man in dark was at one time my savior, but then had betrayed
me; the bloody tears I cried, for he had sired them into my soul for these
memories to never leave me...
He stole my heart, but what he had done after that is far more worse
than pain, he demolished it and shattered my dreams...that little girl was
my sister, I had been there to watch...just standing there, in horror,
confused and crying so silently that I didn't realize it myself...
I didn't know at all what to do, this mirror let me back to reality of
what a fool I have really been, I have always been...that I must put a stop
This mirror, are these memories really flashing before my eyes?; at
this point I wish I had not any eyes in which to see them...But it all
starts to come to me, become clear...
This has all happened in a split second...as I see the sharp blade I
hold in my right hand, the large bleeding gash in my left wrist; I am so
shocked that I unbelievingly drop the blade to the ice cold ground...
Which is now nothing but a pool of blood on the floor with the
imprints of the tiles that lie under aways...The streams of blood running,
streaming down my arm...
I am so alarmed I try to let our a scream; nothing escapes my mouth,
so bitter and dry...obviously have I lost my voice...I feel so faint, But
now my vision starts to blurr...
Things start to spin, ground becomes unsteady, like the waves of the
flowing ocean gently, freely crashing upon the warm shore...The light so
Coming from my bathroom light, bright as ever, leaving what's left of
my sight but swirling colors and an instant image of the gorgeous horizon;
that I fear I shall never redeem or see again...
I suddenly feel a large pai hit my backneck and my backed spine, I
guess I have fallen to the floor I dreaded, the same floor that I feared I
shall never pick myself up from...Things get darker...
I guess this is what death must feel like...though this whole time I
have felt no pain physically, I guess I have grown numb to this, not only my
skin but my mind; but the sorrow and guilt start to build up, I try to let a
tear fall, but they refuse to escape from my shuddering eyes...
I lay still on the floor,I hear nothing, everything pitch-black, I
feel nothing...Though the last thing I see is a picture of your exuberant
It seems in front of my eyes, but it is really in my mind...as it
paints a wondrous picture in my mind...
As I feel my eyes slowly droop shut...
And hear my last breathe,
Why Did I give my life up to you
When i could have just stood up to you-
Death comes to the who don't take a stand-
So take my Hand Rope or knife
is pease really worth your life
Hanging there with an empty stair
Chilling screams Break the air
Why Did I give my life up to you
COuld I just have stood up to you
Death comes at the greatest cost
given unto those that are lost
When the fruit of life is burnt away
The tormented give their lives up willingly.
But I find none...
From you to me...
ANGER IS TIGHT. IT MAKES ME WANT TO FIGHT. MESS WITH ME AND I'LL PUT YOU IN
THE DIRT. I MAY BE COCKY. I MAY BE A LITTLE ROCKY. BUT IM STILL NOT A JOCK.
CUZ ANGER ROCKS
~Why cant we be free. Held back from sinking. Sunk from the inside out. Tell
the truth. Paranoia entangled lies. Only if you could hear my cries. Blanket
of happiness. Nothing to keep warm. Just tell the truth. I won't listen
~I want you to leave. I need you here. Just don't stay long. Don't be sucked
in by me. I hate not being free. Just to be next to you. My pill to stay
alive. I get closer to push you away. Pushing all happiness from my
~This is my last cry. Embrace with carbon monoxide
Cant you see. I hate me.....